the moment we gone thru.....

wonndering how long never update my blog, especially in english *thinking*
is time for me to learn more from mistake, i should blog more in english =p
had a wonderful dinner with munster & mt 2nite, deal to slow digestion, i think is not the right time for me to go to bed now -.-

suddenly recall back how we started half year++ ago. time flies, already been together more than 6 months, and i already knew u almost 2 years i guess. a friend of mine ever asked me a question: "how come u only be with him 1 & a half year after knew each other?" i was stuunned, coz i really never think of this b4. we were in a same gang (years ago, of coz the gang still exist), but in point of fact we r not so close, don even talk much. only talk while we tumpang each other's car heading to the same destination for the gang gathering. it was tough time for me in the car. u know wat, he WAS a quiet boy, it's hard for me to keep korek topic to talk about all the way from home to destination (now no longer quiet -.-")

we have been thru sweet and difficult moments, thank god, serious fight or arguement never occur between us. i admit i'm my parents' spoilt daughter, an unruly girl and get angry easily, as u know i have bad temper. thanks for ur tolerance, i can't imagine wat will happen if both of us are not willing to make concessions *hahahah*
frankly speaking, i do asked myself y i fall into him, but me myself can't find out the reason. until that day during yam cha session, my friends complaining how bad their ex did (who juz broke up recently). in the moment i found out i'm the lucky 1 among them, at least i know my man never do this kind of thing on me.
i'm not sure how far we can go, but i giving ourselves some time to improve and grow up. pls tell me u r the right person, pls do something to prove it isn't my wrong choice.
action always speaks more than words, lots of feeling can't express in words. i'm not good in expressing, i doesn't mean rude to u sometimes. maybe my outspoken character make u feel uncomfortable. but this is me.


baby, thanks for everything
u r imperfect, that's y i love u

话题

“我们已经没有话题可言。。。”这句话是从她口中说出来的。我们的关系再次面临着僵局。
坦白说，自从上个星期开始，我已经尽量减少我们之间的谈话，为了避免不必要得争吵再次发生。她说我对她有偏见，说我敏感，所以每次谈话一定会发生争执。是吗？我有吗？无可否认，我对她态度是越来越冷漠，有时甚至带有讽刺的意味。每次和她说话我会担心，会怕，不知道我又会说错哪一句话得罪到她，又被骂。我们之间还像是家人吗？一家人连交谈都那么的不自在，还有什么意思？
她说都是我的错，因为我说话没有为别人想过，就只是在想自己。那么为什么我对别人不会呢？我承认我对你态度冷淡，在我们的谈话里，已经找不到快乐，只有恐惧。

又来了

同人不同命，我做什么都是错！不管哥哥做什么，不管你多生气他，你还是会在背后帮他做这个，帮他准备那个。你做什么都是为了他。我没有妒嫉哥哥的意思，更没有要求你对我有什么特别的待遇。可是这样也差太远了吧？
如果有一天你妈妈骂你：“有你这个女儿，我衰整世！” “你去死啦！” 这种话，你听了会有怎样的感受？一个人不管多生气，也不应该说这种话是吧？有时候真的怀疑我是否和她贴错门神，可是怎么又有缘分成为两母女呢？
人家说，妈妈不管怎样，都是爱自己的孩子。有啊！她很疼我，可是只有在她心情好的时候。实在不懂要怎样和她相处下去。
真的很心痛。。。

失落记

不知不觉，现在已经五月尾了。考完试已经一个月了吧！
如果当初没有放弃理想，多三天我就飞了。这几天大家都在做最后的准备，下个星期开开心心的去读书。多么羡慕他们，我多么的想去，可是我明白自己的能力就是有限。当现在看见大家能去，自己不能去，其实是蛮心痛的。
有些朋友还要求我倒机场送机，我想去陪陪他们，可是我怕自己会不高兴。不是因为他们要走，而是觉得在机场等待上机的那个是我。
“准备到怎样了？还有什么还没买啊？”听起来不怎么样，其实口在问心在酸。说我缩头乌龟也好，其实我多么不想听到别人提起他们出国留学的事，一直觉得有点接受不了。
当初是我自己选择退学的，其实已经慢慢接受了。可是就是因为考试的事情让我耿耿于怀！为什么拿我来开倒哦？别人要毕业难道我不想吗？他们要去英国那我就不用做工啊？
可能就是因为这个原因，我才觉得我因该去英国吧。。。

Putrajaya Hot Air Balloon

Location: Putrajaya
Date: 22 March 2008
Time: 4pm - 8pm
Weather: Sunny

After makan McD at Mutiara Damansara, 7 of us heading to putrajaya, for only 1 purpose-----> take nice pic
Eventhough that was a hot & sunny day, but all of us enjoyed the day
It was a happy day for me, a memorable day :D

Field covered with crowd, Sky covered with balloons

Group photo b4 we leave the field

From left to right: Hon Mun Winn Kelvin YeeLeng MT Egg Darren

That's all for today, will be update more photos in the coming day

Good night ppl~

忧虑？

漂浮不定，不知道自己在想什么。为什么现在突然担心起来呢？
可是这一刻我很确定我要问我自己 “应该是这样的吗？可以这样吗？然后怎样？”
现在的我乱七八糟，谁能为我分担呢？坦白说，我是有一点怕。很多事不是可以三言两语就能够解释得清清楚楚。多理智的一个人也会有不想面对现实的时候。
不同的角度去看这件事会有不同的结论。到底哪个结论才是最后的结果呢？这一刻没有人知道，只有时间能给我答案。

-发泄完毕，明天又是新的一天！加油吧！-

Langkawi Trip *Part II*

Date: 16 Feb 2009
Location: Langkasuka Hotel Beach

Time: Evening

The ducks will never miss a chance to swim.

Jump on beach b4 jump into sea

Our group photo at the beach.

Yes! Is a group photo! Don juz look at me, further ur sight, the dot dot on the sea r them! Haha~

Location: Pantai Cernang

Time: Dinner time (night)

Various of cuisine along Pantai Cernang street. We have randomly choose a chinese restaurant.

One of dish, Bamboo chicken *tasty*

This restaurant food so so, only the bamboo chicken is the best for me. The price is quite high. The main reason is bcoz it located at tourist attaraction point, that's y they charge higher.

Never miss the chance to drink gao gao at Langkawi!! There is no reason refuse to drink ALCOHOL *wakakak*

Absolut Kurant *smell nice, drink..... :-S

Total up we had 2 botels of liquor at Langkawi, 1 is showing above, another is Barcadi Apple. It nicer than Absolute Kurant. I was enjoyed the moment sitting 2gether at balcony, chit chat & drink. For sure, there were ppl drunk in the days =p

To be continue...

Bye all~

*alignment cacat sikit, pai seh*

不想去了

总是觉得我还没到达那个阶段。现在的功课已经是我能力范围之外了，何况是去到那边。如果真的不去了，这个决定做得那么仓促，会不会冲动了一点？问心，如果不想去，那就别去了。我一直在鼓励自己说，别人做到，为什么我做不到?现在的状况,看起来真的好像办不到。
其实我还在犹豫，到底是不是真的不去了？我知道这是个很好的机会，不去我怕我以后会后悔。但是我总觉得自己过不了这一关。即使这里的事物解决了，去到那边还是会面对一样的问题。我还以为我想通了，原来不是，而是我的信心还没找回来。
可能有人觉得我再闹别扭，一时一样。可是你们永远都不会明白一个考试不及格，做事依赖的人，心理那份矛盾。

Langkawi Trip *Part I*

Date: 16 Feb 2008

Weather: Sunny

Wake up early in the morning, off to kl sentral and take bus to LCCT going to catch up our flight by 11.25am. Since we reach kl sentral earlier, we have grab the time to makan our McD breakfast :D

While waiting for 3 late comers

While waiting for the flight

Arrive at Langkawi International Airport

The only word I can use to describe the weather "HOT"! U can feel the sun is burning ur skin. Another worst thing happened is the air corn in our rental car is not cooling! *so called Serena pula* -.-"

Our Nissan Serena @ Langkawi

1st station - Langkawi Cable Car

This point is the MUST to visit at Langkawi. It located at somewhere very deep inside ulu, only the signboard can lead u to the right direction.
U can enjoy the nice scenery from the higest point of Langkawi. Eventhough the sun is shining in the noon, we can still can feel the fresh windy air when standing on the bridge. Those ppl who afraid of high, pls be prepared. The cable car is much more higher than Genting Highland Skyway. Haha!

HonMun, Dylan, WoonLoong, Winn, Sean, CheeKin

To be continue....
Feel sleepy now, Good Night people~

副作用

从浮罗交怡回来也已经一个星期多了。还记得我自己的上一包是在上个星期五。我已经接近一个星期没真正碰了。对上那一次也只是和朋友在云顶喝茶来了两支。
虽然只有一个星期，我开始觉得副作用产生了。。。我胃口变大了，即使吃饱了感觉也还不是很够；吃够了好像不消化似的。身体有一点肿胀，明显的变肥了。消化变差了，人也容易疲倦。怎么办？？？这次的状况比上次还要多！
我很怕！虽然这次真的有了恒心，决定把这个坏习惯改了，可是那种恐怖的副作用不断的产生！尤其是变胖，变肿。我虽然是肥，可是我不想变得更肥！！
其实这次这么坚决，我也不知道是为了自己还是为了别人。我把别人的话听了进去，怕别人的眼光。别人怎样看我，我不管。可是较亲密的朋友的确对我影响很大。除此之外，当然我也有自己的原因。
曾经想过放弃，反正改不改也不会有人在意，结果也都一样。
为了自己也好，为了别人也好，努力一点吧！
我要的，只是你们的支持！

PD Trip *Part II*

I promised to update the "Part II" of PD Trip since September 2008 :p

Althought it already passed almost 6 months ago, but i never forget with my promise *wakakaka*

18-9-2008 Thursday- Sunny Day

1st station - Buffet Breakfast @ Hotel Restaurant

What else? As usual, nasi lemak, toast, cornflakes with milk, noodles, etc etc etc...

the best food we founded was.......

chaing chaing~~ ------------> ***fried egg***

coz the egg fried on the spot once the customer order *nothing special actually -.-" lame!!!*

This is the egg(s) I mention, special right? Kembar leh!!! (super lame -.-" )

2nd Station - Hotel Garden

Jalan-jalan around the hotel gaden. Digest our breakfast and ready for lunch!

All of us macam budak kampung, hehehee....
*photo taken by Munster*

Check out lu~

3rd Station - Seaside
Since we have no where to go, juz spend some time have a walk at beach, under the sun at noon!!!
Mad Ducks!!

The Lagend Water Chalet behind Glory Beach Resort

Last station - ABC stall @ PD Town

Do u ever try "curry chicken bread" at PD?
Some ppl say it's nice, but some ppl say Kampar's "curry chicken bread" is more authentic.

For me, is almost the same. u judge urself ^.^

We had da bao "curry chicken bread" to a ABC stall (aka ais batu campur)
The ABC at PD town is different with what i had at kl. I like this more, bcoz the ice is softer n the taste is better with coconut milk.
My cousin used to bring me there during tea time. Maybe i can say so, the ABC stall is the only place we can lepak for tea time. hahah!!

That's all for our PD Trip on 17 & 18 September 2008
Weather: Sunny
Status: Succeed

This was Duckies 1st trip, it was memorable ^^

老友记

我刚从楼下上来，今晚家里来了贵宾。听说是妈妈的老朋友兼housemate。以前小时候，这个阿姨我算是常见面。只是近这几年妈妈和她比较少联络，尤其是在他结婚以后。现在的她，已经是两个孩子的妈妈了。
他们在看着以前年轻时候的照片，还细说着以前年轻时候的故事。包括谁追谁，结果那个谁谁谁却嫁了给另一个。不时他们也在向对方打听其他老朋友的下落，甚至听说有一位已经不在人世了。
照片里有很多他们的回忆，顿时让我想起了我的一班好朋友。以后我们还会不会拿着相簿，坐在一起，谈天，讲故事呢？他们的现在，好像在反映着我们的以后。没有人知道以后会怎样。可能还会保持联络，可能不会。以后的关系，就要靠大家努力咯！

Super pek-cek Day!!!

今天早上起身心情已经不大好了，加上昨晚睡得不是很够，简直是要我的命！了解我的人都知道，如果我不够睡，那天一定会是“易燃品”，生火吾近！要不然中烧后果自负！
可是今天看起一切都不怎么顺心,唉~
早上到刚才，连续遇到三个火上加油的人，真的要晕倒！！！
-发泄完毕-

迟些我再和你们分享我在Langkawi的旅程吧！